short and sweet.

ugh. its 11pm and I'm already tired! where did the Lena the night owl go?? i miss her. lol I went today to my 3 1/2 month check up since my surgery and i am down 70 pounds. yay me. he said that everything looked great, my blood work checked out and i am good to go till my next apt in 3 more months. I didn't have any questions for him. I'm feeling good, eating regular menu, exercising 3-5 days a week, and taking my vitamins. i did mention about my hair coming out. Not really to find out what to do about it (cuz I've read up on all that and talked to some friends)but just for him to note it in my folder. The Dr told me that i should prolly expect to see 5 pound weight loss each month now instead of 10. I'm good with that. heck ill take what i can get! As long as i can keep working out and my portion control is under control i am good. :)

You're drivin me up a wall!!!!!

LMAO...my mom use to say that all the time to the three of us girls. And now i understand. ha ha. though i have 2 boys. (Logan AND Jason) Its not that you get angry or upset...its just that they can be all up in your space 24/7! lol Now don't get me wrong, i do think i have a pretty good life and lifestyle, so I'm not trying to complain about all that. Its just sometimes i struggle with stuff and get frustrated with it all. Being a SAHM (stay at home mom)you are constantly here! your job is the housework, kids, husband, finances,meals, errands, bills,ect. it can get over whelming at times. Jason at least gets to go to work everyday and get away from it all for a few hours. and even gone for months at a time. Being a SAHM you can end up doing everything (almost everything) by yourself. it is a job that CANNOT be belittled at all!!! i dont know how my girlfriends do it that have more than one child in the home. I hope to get alot done and learn alot once logan starts school!
A constant struggle for me is learning how to discipline Logan. I have no idea what I'm doing. and I'm afraid that I'm going to be doing it all wrong. I myself was hardly ever spanked, never in my life grounded, got smacked a few times and sent to my room alot! Jason had it a lil more tough than i did on his side of the tracks. So we do struggle as parents and as a couple on how we are suppose to do things. I do believe in spanking. We count to 3 n all that jazz....i love when shrek says "you're going the right way for a smacked bottom!" I use timeout alot. i don't feel it really does any good. And i have started to take things away from Logan...like toys and TV privileges in his room.
Oh before i go on, lemme say Logan is really good. i can take him anywhere and not really worry about him being a hooligan. I take him to my meetings and he sits quietly through them with colors n such. He is so patient when we take our 12 hour trips back and forth to Iowa and Texas. But there are things ya know id like to tune up and well lets face it he is a boy.
He has started doing this thing lately if you are giving him direct order to do something. ex:Logan, go play in your room. He makes a funny face and starts rolling his eyes. So today when this happened i spanked. outta reflex and shock that my 4 yr old was making such a face at me! he cried and was sent to his room. The more i thought about it i was pissed. not at Logan so much as myself. I didn't like spanking him and Jason didn't agree with it. after a lil bit Logan came out and said sorry for making a face and he was ready to be a good boy. i hugged him and reminded him mommy doesn't like mean faces and he went and played. but seriously it took me a couple hours to get over me a spanking him and Logan only like 15 min!
Ugh. so how do ya know whats right? what wont traumatize your child? what will help them to learn how to respect and obey their parents? I try really hard to have a great relationship with my son, the best that i can. I do fear that he will act out like alot of teenagers these days do. I think my parents did a great job raising me. The discipline in my house was right for me. lol i am very sensitive and they could give me a mean look n id be crying, but besides that all through my teens i thought that it was all right (well...maybe if ya woulda asked me then i would have changed a few things I'm sure...ha ha but what kid wouldn't!) its funny that last night i went to barnes and noble. i was reading up on a book called everything you need to know on raising boys. lol then today flipping through the channels wouldnt ya know dr phil was talking about corrective parenting. im like geesh enough with the signs! i know i need to take a step back, get down on my knees and pray. Pray for guidence, patience, and kind words. Logan the other day said "what the hell!?!" and im thinkin it could have been way worse with all the army slang that goes through my house. But thats not all to blame I too tend to slip em out often. so i guess when i pray ill need to add. "God please keep one hand on my shoulder, and the other hand over my mouth!" :)

dolla dolla hear me holla!!!!

whoo hoo! I'm feelin good about some buys i got today! bargain shopping! OK, so Jason needed a new wardrobe to go on his "trip". now i really didn't want to go buy all brand new stuff...since he will never wear them otherwise unless he HAS to so (he has to have kaki pants and polo shirts, and we all know Jason wears jeans n Heavy metal black T's)....i went to goodwill! 3 of them! lol i was not successful in pants but i did get 6 polo shirts for 22 bucs! I went to target and shopped around. i like target (mostly because there is a Starbucks in there.) found him 3 pair of pants. so check and check on Jason's stuff. When i got home i surfed craigslist as always....and i found a new pet carrier for poppy for 5 bucs! yay!! the ppl met me with in the hour. and since i was out i might as well go to wal mart right!?! ....low prices everyday folks! i wanted a soft carrier also. i found one...that one i spent a lil more on. but i love it so whatever. As long as mommas happy, everyone is happy. isn't that how the saying goes....OH or i always like....your husband called, buy anything you want! ha ha.
So one of Jason's buddies needs a place to crash tonight and our couch sounded pretty good. so we have company tonight. Grilled out burgers n had fries. It was all good till our "picnic" was invaded by stupid flies. dumb things. now they boys are playing xbox *rolling eyes* of course. and Logan is playing with poppy.
Oh! i went to Jazzercise this morning. i hadn't been in about 2 weeks. i kept up pretty good. not bad. i like doing things like that. Jazzercise is a lot of fun. Of course nothing beats my Richard Simmons. (LOVE HIM) but Jazzercise has come close. I think i like the class in shen better than the one down here. the people that attend are just more friendly there than here. Id like to try Zumba class sometime. i hear good things. lol Now that Jason isn't working in the DFAC (thank goodness) he doesn't get off at 1pm every other day. hes working full days. so it might be harder to go to some of these type things. *shrug* oh well at least he is done with that crap! :)
Anyways...i guess im ramblin on about nothin now so i should turn in for the evening. goodnight!

Happy Fathers Day!

I was lucky enough to grow up with DADS. not just one dad but 2great dads and amazing grandpas! when i am talking about "my dad" people always say...which one. lol Because they are both such a wonderful part of my life. Even though my daddy lived in Montana most of my life i never went without feeling he didn't love me. He has always shown me love. And my daddy ray has always treated me as one of his girls. I never felt any different than his daughter. growing up if i wasn't with my parents i was with my grandparents. My grandpa truly showed me what it is to be the man of a family. Not just in his own home but throughout his children's homes too.
Today at church the sermon was titled Men leading the way. The pastor talked about being a christian man, following in gods footsteps, and being the best earthly father you can be. My grandpa was that. to the moon and back he was. It was funny because i was sitting there next to Jason, thinking about my grandpa and thinking about Jason. (yes i know i was judging Jason in the pew!) BUT i have to say. i picked a good one. Nobody can compare to my grandpa. (but then again Jason and i are only 27, we have more to grow so maybe we will get there) Jason has a big heart with unconditional love. Its amazing to have someone in my personal space with that much unconditional love for me. Trust me! I'm not easy to live with! Jason and i grew up on different sides of the tracks. He does a great job showing Logan the ropes and Logan never goes a day (when Jason is here) with out Jason's hugs, kisses, or rumble time! lol
I cant write about fathers day without mentioning Micky. Micky has only been in our family for a couple years now. But in those couple years he has completed my mother. She is happy and healthy. He has treated Jason, Logan, and i very good. We always enjoy sitting (that is if we can get him to sit! ha ha) and visiting with him. Micky makes amazing Mexican lasagna! (ha ha sorry i had to throw that out there!) I am so blessed to have great men in my life.
I am thankful for Jason being Logan's dad. I am thankful for the dads in my life, and i am thankful for my grandpas. Happy Fathers Day to all my loved ones near and far!

Poppy or Poopy?

So my good friend is moving and cannot take all her pets. Ha Ha...you know where this is going dont you!? So....We have a house guest this weekend to see if he works out and clicks within our family. His name is Poppy. so we will see if poppy is approved or just poopy. lol Poppy is a purebred yorkie. So cute! Of course we all have fallen in love with the lil guy and he is super sweet with real nice manners. House and crate trained! bonus! The only thing that we have come across is our fence. he is so lil, he can fit through spaces along the fence line. He got out twice before 7am! lol so after some fussin and wakin the whole house up we got the spaces blocked. Whew! Kind of annoying BUT turns out just what we needed to get in gear for the day. Jason then mowed the yard and did some stuff out in the shed and I washed up dishes, did some laundry AND baked a cake! OOOooooo how domestic am I!? lol. The cake was a success! even though i dont have a round cake pan i used my spag pot. ha ha. worked just fine n dandy! i cut down the cake n made it look like a football.....lol for fathers day. He prolly would have wanted one that looked like a dodge challenger or some gamer character, but alas. im not that talented. YET!

OH yes! we took logan to see the new SHREK. it was so cute. like chick flick cute. i totally got my fix off of shreks last line...."the best part about today is that i got to fall in love with you all over again" *swooon* so awesome! and i have to admit, i have always thought i resembled fiona as an ogre (whatever, shes a hott ogre) and i swear when shrek turns into a human he looks like jason! AH HA HA HA HA...oh man we laugh about it all the time! so i guess maybe my Hollywood me isnt super nanny....its FIONA!!! rawr!

whats this about?

Well i am going to try this bloggin thing. i think i tried it before and didnt keep up with it. lol BUT i have enjoyed reading my "ant anns" blog so ima gonna copy er. lol We just got back from iowa yesterday. I hate coming back here. it is TOTALLY not home to me. i love being within my own realm and within my own peeps, ya know. i love my family back home. No matter the drama n bullshit, they are my favorite people. Oh and my besties! Lynda and Karen! i love to see them as much as i can! We really enjoyed goin over to lyndas house and cookin out hotdogs, just hanging out talkin bout old times, new times, this and that. HA HA we always come up with something to talk about!! The ride home was very relaxing. i have to admit. i like the trip alot better when McBuff comes along. even though most of the time one of us is snoozin, we have nice talks and rock out to our music. Oh and we get to hold hands....ahhhh holding hands. such a thrill in high school and now im finding it to be just as exciting. lol (sorry gotta lil cheezy up in here.) Anyways...we stayed the night in Pauls Valley OK. I always stay there on my way back to TX! Its nice cuz then the next day ya only hafta drive like 4-5 hours depending on fort worth traffic AND how long ya wanna stop in west! MmmmWEST! lmao.
Today i finally dragged myself outa bed at 10am! just in time to get ready for the day and make logan lunch! Jason didnt have to work today but he went over and helped a buddy move. hey he got an XBOX outa the deal! lol so of course that means new games n whatnot. *sigh* boys and their toys....Logan and i ran some errands. like post office, wal mart, and we went to clothing and sales on post. i found a nice cemetery flag box for grandma to put the flag in. It will be a nice gift for her from the grandkids. I think it will look very nice on top of her shelf.
Well i guess thats all for today.....till 2moro....